Perhaps a week ago I was writing about my inner struggle and pain regarding the issue of if God was pleased with me.
Then God, in His grace and goodness, brought some new thoughts on this topic into my life.
It seemed like an accident. One day I was just reading facebook and saw where Jefferson Bethke had posted how much he enjoyed the book The Cure. On impulse I got the book and started reading it as well as going through the companion website.
The authors of this book and website are causing me to reflect on some of the things I believe about myself and God; to ask more questions.
In their first chapter they put forth the question of if you want to please God or trust Him. They propose that life is to be about trusting God. Although I've always believed in trusting God, I've also obviously seen pleasing Him as important. But as my brother in Christ Mike from Christian Cognition commented the other day, there's no way I can ever please God and I need to get that settled in my mind once and for all. It's only by trusting in His love and acceptance of me, that I can experience what he has for me - not by doing all the right things. Perhaps that's why I read in Hebrews 11 that without faith it's impossible to please God. Isn't faith another word for trust? Like I said yesterday, Ephesians 2:8-9, tells me that He'll give me the faith to believe in Him.
So right now I'm trying to look more at trusting God and put my focus there instead of on pleasing Him.
Trusting God isn't easy for me; especially when things don't appear to be going well. Truth be told I guess I'm selfish; I want things my way. But life doesn't work that way and I've got to mature in my faith to where I trust God no matter what.
Do you find trusting God easy or difficult? Why?