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When I saw my doctor yesterday she wrote me off for 10 days. I think my new boss and employer may be upset, but since I've got a physician's off work order, there is nothing they can do. Since I've never used any of my sick time in the 13 months I've been on this job, I've got more than sufficient days to take these 10 days off with pay. And I need them!
After a brief time in the Word I took a hike with John this morning, made us a wonderful brunch, and then settled in to to read the next chapter in The Cure . Can't express enough how incredible it is to not be exprierencing constant calls from work and to be able to engage in my life.
Not surprisingly, God must have had this chapter just waiting for me today. There's a lot in this chapter about forgiveness and, much to my surprise, the Holy Spirit convicted me about my need to repent and to forgive my employer. Wow-here I've been feeling like the victim and then I'm hit with the fact that I need to do some repenting! Although I may have been victimized, for my own health (not to mention the fact that I'm supposed to be a person who reflects God's love in my workplace) I need to both forgive my work and repent of the sins I've committed in the midst of all this.
Isn't that annoying?! I don't know about you, but I'm much more comfortable with self righteous indignation than with humility.
One of the truths the authors brought to my attention is that my struggle with forgiveness is related to my trust in God. If I believe that He is control of everything, and that anything that occurs in my life is because He has allowed it, then I will trust that these tough situations are going to be used for my good and that God will see me through them. (Obviously one of my sins has been my failure to trust God, my self will.)
I'm grateful for this book because the authors reminded me that the repentance is not something I can work up on my own. 2 Timothy 2:25 makes it clear that God gives us the gift of repentance. So it was no big dramatic thing; I just asked God to give me the gift of repentance and spent some time letting the Holy Spirit bring to my mind my sins. I asked God to forgive me, thanked Him, and then asked Him to empower me to not fall into these any more.
Interestingly enough, repentance of wrong doing on my part in all of this, makes it easier to forgive my employer.
Have you ever had a situation where you had difficulty forgiving? What did God teach you through it?