As I came into my time with God those thoughts lingered in the back of my mind. I found myself asking why I have this intense need to please.
It hit me - because I was created to please God.
That driving inner desire to please is not wrong, but I'm working to please the wrong ones. God is the only One who matters. But then I started crying because I know I'm such a mess up, I fall so very short of God's ways. I had to remind myself that this is why Jesus came and died in the first place, because no one is good enough. I reminded myself that His grace is so much bigger than my mess ups. His love is all consuming.
So I know that He loves me.
But I struggle with if God's pleased with me.
Does anybody else ever have these struggles?
|I believe that in order for faith to be real, it can not only withstand all my doubts and questions, but grows through them.|