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Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
James 1:2-4 (MSG)
These verses fit exactly where I am at right now.
I have an inner struggle that goes like this:
I want to want God to be in the driver’s seat of my life, but I also want everything to be about me. My driving motivation is frequently comfort, ease, and pleasure.
Less than a week ago I was encouraged by my employer to resign from a job. It was not fair, conclusions were drawn that were not accurate, I was blamed for situations that were not my fault. It felt like my former employer wanted the proverbial scapegoat and I was it. The national unemployment rate is 7.7%, my state rate is 9.4%, and my part of the state is 10.9%. Having been on the employer hiring side of the equation for the last couple of years, I’m well aware of how many people are applying for the same jobs that I have applied for this past week. Sound like ‘tests and challenges come at you from all sides”?
I appreciate Peterson’s turn of the phrase “your faith life is forced into the open and shows its true colors” This is a time for me to see what I really believe. Do I trust God or not? This is a time in my life when I get to face my doubts. I speak words of faith all day but then, in the wee hours of the morning, I notice my fitful bouts of sleep. During my short sleep stints I have dreams regarding work.
So the counsel here for me is to refrain from trying to “get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way”. I do want to be mature and not deficient in any way. So I pray that God will work in me, change me, develop me into who He wants me to be, during these trying days.