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I'd been in charge, been the person to work tons of hours creating this program from nothing and then suddenly the company (who gave me nothing in terms of training prior to starting the endeavor and only finally provided a little bit of training after 9 months) brings in another employee over me and makes me her assistant. To their credit, or at least my good, they kept me at the same pay. Something that makes it even more challenging is that my new boss is sarcastic, sharp with people, and difficult to work with because she doesn't lead and is unclear about what she wants. On the good side she's worked for this company for many years and knows their systems well, she's a competent manager, and she's an RN who has more specific medical knowledge than I.
So I've struggled with the whole situation and whined a lot here.
Recently I've started a Bible study in the book of Jonah. I'm utilizing a companion workbook put together by Priscilla Shirer that looks at Jonah from the perspective of a life interrupted. I can relate to that theme. I had these career plans to grow this program and, although the program is growing, I'm no longer in charge. This wasn't how I envisioned things going.
Shirer makes these points in her book that have got me to thinking:
"A life interrupted by a holy God is a privilege"
"God doesn't need us to complete His purposes, yet He still chooses to ask us to partner with Him. It's unfathomable. His callinig you means that He has chosen you above anyone else to do what He is asking. You are the one He singled out and pinpointed as His partner for a particular project."
"Believing that divine interruptions are a privilege not only will cause us to handle them differently but also to await them eagerly. Knowing that we have an opportunity to participate in God's purposes should cause us to sit on the edge of our seats in anticipation of divine interventions disguised as life's interruptions."
So, I've been spending time looking and looking and looking for another job. I've been asking why can't I seen to get another job? But now I'm thinking that I need to be seeking God as to what He wants from me here at this job right now. I need to be asking what is Your purpose in having me here at this job right now? What is it that You want me to do?