Push to be the ruler

I have this problem. It's in the way I think.

I repeatedly find myself thinking I'm the center of the universe, that life is all about me. Some people, like my husband and kids, probably recognize this for what it really is: Selfishness.

This morning the following words form James 4:1-3 (MSG) just emphasized this truth anew:

^1-2 Where do you think all these appalling wars and quarrels come from? Do you think they just happen? Think again. They come about because you want your own way, and fight for it deep inside yourselves. You lust for what you don't have and are willing to kill to get it. You want what isn't yours and will risk violence to get your hands on it.

^2-3 You wouldn't think of just asking God for it, would you? And why not? Because you know you'd be asking for what you have no right to. You're spoiled children, each wanting your own way.

I so need God. I'm so grateful for the Holy Spirit within me that can give me the power to change. May I be aware today, on guard for this kind of thinking so that I can run from it.

Captive Lover

Teresa of Avila is one of those Christian Mystics who I periodically read. She helps my mind think along different lines than those to which I would normally be drawn,. Today I read the following quote from her in regard to one's will when in prayer:

"It merely consents to God allowing Him to imprison it as one who well knows how to be the captive of its lover."

Oh to be like that!

This thought of the passionate lover that is captive was especially real to me today because I've been listening to the audio books of the Stephanie Meyers books. As I was cooking and cleaning today I was listening to Eclipse. These books show so well the captive heart of one in love.

My Savior is oh so desirable and lovable. He is faithful and true and powerful and interest ed in me and has my good at heart.

Oh Father, bring me to the point where my will is totally in Your control

Do you have someone who you periodically read that inspires your passion for God?